Words Left Unsaid

       Those days were gone but my love for her still remains. The waves of regrets haunted my inner thoughts. The blue sky turned into a dark gray one--it was vague. I regret those times. I was about to catch a lovely being's heart but that time I was uncertain. I was afraid. I wasn't so sure about it. I was even thinking back then, "What if our worlds wouldn't cross each other? What if...?"

       I've tried once. I only tried once. Whenever she passed by, I wore my sweetest inviting smile. I sang beautiful songs together with the swaying grasses and the whistling wind. The birds above us sang lovesome songs too. But she's not noticing me. She just touched my heart and left nothing but footprints--it hurt me so much. Am I invisible or is she the one that's naive? I've even wished to be like her--her being, so that I could escape to this lonely world of mine and we could be together. The blissful sun, the quiescent moon, and the twinkling stars, they  knew everything; the times when I was in deep sadness.

       Parts of me now are slowly wilting. This lonely world of mine might end too soon but, my love for her will always be with me eternally. But, if and only if, I did tell her what I truly felt then, this wouldn't be a useless lonely world of mine. Now, my everything's gone; she's gone. Goodbye my beloved butterfly. See you in the next wonderful world of ours. Farewell. I'll be bringing those memories we had. In this quiet seashore, I, a poor wild dandelion take it's final look into the world where everything started. But, my love for you remains...

Introducing Me

I am: an ordinary person trying to be extraordinary...

I think: I'm on the right track. Baby, I was born this way! XD

I know: I still have more to learn in life. ^.^

I want: to improve in many aspects of life, especially in writing. B)

I have: a dream, a song to sing, to help me cope with everything. ^.- 

I wish: I am a fish swimming in the sea but a fish on a dish, I never wish to be!

I hate: those wasted times that i didn't use my "coconut shell." >.< Err.

I miss: my old self--a very loud me.

I fear: my best isn't good enough...

I hear: the sweet music of LIFE. ;)

I smell: my armpit often. hekhek XD sshhh..

I crave: for true love. ;'3 (long story) Haha

I search: for answers to my unanswerable questions... hmmf.

I wonder: what's my purpose in living this kind of life...?

I regret: for the mistakes I've done in the past but, I learn from them.

I love: everyone as well as I love myself.

I ache: when people are so mean to the world. Pfft.

I was not: able to give my very best this second semester... I hope it's never too late.

I am not: usually good at cracking jokes but I'm naturally funny. XD Maybe because of my face? lol.

I cry: when he ignores my presence...when I feel like he hates me. But now I don't 'cause I feel like my heart is already numb.

I believe: everybody deserves to gain true love and true happiness, in God's time...

I dance: when I feel to dance. ;D Dancing is one of my hobbies.

I sing: random songs. Anything that relate to me...

I read: books...                                                                                                           UNFINISHED. ;P

I don't always: hide what I truly feel inside. I'm not secretive kind of person.

I fight: 'cause I'm a fighter but I still know my limitations.

I write: not using my pen and paper. I write through my wild IMAGINATION... XD (wehh?!)

I win: because I continue living...

I lose: when I feel like giving up.

BUT...

I never: give up. I'm not a quitter.

I always: grab every opportunity. I don't waste time.

I confuse: names of the people I meet along the way... I just easily remember their faces but not their names.

I listen: to music when I'm stressed-out. It's my one way of relaxation.

I can usually be found: anywhere...  ;D 'cause I'm a "red-but fly." HAHA 

I am scared: of DARKNESS... especially when I'm alone.

I need: to strive hard for me to pass my Major subject. I don't want to shift another course. o_o

I am happy: with my life yet still seeking for more. I know it'll still turn better.

I wake up: every morning telling myself, "God has given you a brand new day... make something productive out of it and thank Him for everything He has given to you." ;)

I sleep: after a very long day of mine... and while sleeping I wander in Dreamland not knowing what's there on the other side.

      I was just observing to those who were busy doing stuffs using Photoshop. I got bored so I went to Sarah, who's confused on what to do. I decided to grab the chair and started editing the photo (the farm background).

      It took me some time to look for a man standing showing its back but luckily I just did. Then, I added some kind of a shadow on the man. *credits to some of the affiliates who "patiently" taught me how. :D

       And the highlight, the so-called LENS FLARE!!! HAHA Try to look for it. 

I really like the effect. ^.^ *just don't mind the "beginner" Thanks also to Kuya Hapi for telling me what to do for the flare.

        I'm so proud of my first creation! Watch out for the next ones. ;)

         

1st Creative Writing Workshop

We were asked to randomly pick the following:

1. Character:     a new mother
2. Time:            a cold and stormy night
3. Place:           a college library
4. Situation:      you reach your goals
    
And to make a story out of those... Here's mine.


       As I was making my way to the institution where I graduated, I was amazed by the big changes in the place. It wasn't like it was before. The place has changed a lot.
So, I continued walking...

       Surprisingly, the dusty stairs leading to the library caught my attention. My feet wanted me to go there hurriedly. I can't control them; as if they have their own life. Then when I reached there, a cold gust of air brushes my face.
I was uncertain.

       I don't know what exactly to do. It seems like it was my first time to get in there. I then told myself, "You can do this!" After sometime, I didn't notice that tears run down from my eyes. I remembered the things I used to do before. Then, I was shocked when I saw my favorite chair where I used to read books.

       This is what I'm fearing of--to move on from the past. It has been my frustration on how to overcome my greatest fear. I cried and cried, thinking of the mistakes I've done in the past. Then, I felt unconscious without noticing the time. When I was awake, I slowly looked into the window. Heavy rain is pouring down, just like my shattered dreams.

       It did turn into a cold and stormy night. I was all alone in the library. Like my world, I am all alone with nobody else. It's my greatest fear to be alone. Like my old favorite chair, both of us were left by him.

Realizations stroke me.

       But I did overcome my greatest fear, when the sunny morning and the beautiful weather came the next day. It was a new hope for me--to live my life as a full time librarian and as a single mother to my one-year old child.

This is just the beginning of my story.

The End.